Anxious as Always

This time last year I was anxious and worried, both wanting to go back to school and hating the idea of it. It seems history truly does repeat himself. Yesterday (the twelfth), was the one year mark from when my mother was diagnosed with lung cancer. My father surprised her with an ice cream cake when he got home from work. My mother, being my mother, cried for a short while and then we ate dinner, played some video games, and then ate the cake. It was all very nice. My mother's cancer has been responding well, but small cell cancer is incurable with current technology. She will never be "cured" or cancer-free. All we can do is reduce the cancer cells in her body and prolong her life. And pray of course. :)

This isn't the only reason I find myself anxious though. I have bills due soon, rent in a few weeks, and books to buy. One of my books is over 200 dollars, another is over 100. Oh expensive semester, how I loathe you! Still, despite all the obvious future debt and leaving my mother, I can't wait to see my friends again, and even to start classes. This coming semester I'm taking an asian studies class based around korean popular culture. This will surely be a stress reliever. :D

That being said, my sister and I are currently reading "The Lovely Bones" aloud to my mother. The chemo has left her eyes all wonky, and she wants to read it because of the movie. My sister has never read it either. This will prove to be an interesting experience.

Have a magnificent day and hug somebody!

<3 Zan

::A Quote To Leave You By::

“How to commit the perfect murder was an old game in heaven. I always chose the icicle: theweapon melts away.” The Lovely Bones